blog 7-29-24 i am starting a blog again because i blogpost in my telegram group im in with my friends too much and i remembered i had a stupid blog thing on my neocities pagge. by stupid i mean very nice thank you nice people who made this blog thing. i am using it in a stupid way though.
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if you can't see the video here it is
after the death of my pet millipede Freak a month ago i have been very emotional over bugs*. i want to hug a bug*.

*any protostome, preferably terrestrial
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recently i've been having trouble sleeping at night. i have been staying with a friend since the middle of July and will be until early September. i wanted to leave my mom's house because it was a bad environment to live in. i don't want to talk about that though. i was hoping that i would feel better after leaving but i ended up getting sick immediately after i left (airport miasma) and i was effectively bedridden for 3 weeks until about 3 days ago. i also got all my friends sick which i felt bad about but they have since recovered. 👍

^ the reason that paragraph is there is that i was hoping that leaving my parents would help me with my gnarly depression symptoms but they persisted anyway. my body rots with me inside of it and i have been a vegetable. its OK though


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anyway ive found that by giving myself immense amounts of patience, i can slowly recover to the point where i feel enoguh energy to do stuff again. im not 100% there though. i have been very disappointed with myself because i've been incapable of working on my secret project that i wanted to put something out for this month. oh well! i put out an album instead. everything i've been producing otherwise has been mostly derivative sludge but it's better than nothing. here is a selection of it below:


"7-15-24 2010 fever dream!!!.mp3"

"eyez on u.mp3"
imvu weird shit going on
room I made in IMVU feat. mysterious guy OC eating out of a smoothie bowl like a dog. don't worry, this is normal for him.

imvu weird shit going on
collage I made with stuff on my desktop including IMVU screenshot of mysterious guy (and his shitfucked priorities) and real life video screenshot of lovely owl Yoll
buge
collage moodboard of terrarium game... idea.... about having a terrarium and putting weird alien buges in it. its good. i will not make this

anyway i guess that has been the poobiss 3am july report. i have more things i want to write about it's just difficult to keep organized because my brain is a turnip. hopefully that will change. i do want to post more about this mysterious character but i only want to begin doing that once i finish doing the stuff I wanted to do in Blender. with his dope ass 3d model. that im making
OK byeeeeeee

bla bla i crazy now